Monday, August 12, 2013 10:04 PM
Boo!
*knock**knock*
Do people still go to Blogger? Meh. Potato, tomatoes.
So, to people who may or may not visit my lovely blog, Hello!
*waves*
Honestly though, I've absolutely no idea what I'm doing back here. It's been how long? Two, three years? Really? I even went through the trouble of actually rereading all my old posts. Damn, it was all bloody embarrassing. Which is why I made the difficult decision *puh-lease, it was probably the best decision I made* to delete every. Single. Post. Posted. On. This. Darn. Thing.
Oh, to be a young & bright-eyed, foolish lass.
To be frank, I doubt I'd be faithfully updating my blog as I once did, hence the ridiculously long hiatus. I just had this sudden urge to sit in front of my laptop, ignore all the more important work I'm meant to be doing at this very moment, & just, hi.
Just a little recap, it's already the end of Ramadan & well into the first week of Syawal, I'm currently attending my second semester of university already at this stage in my life. Ehmagawd! I'm a University student! And that is probably the most exciting thing to happen to me all this time. No wonder my blog sucks bananas.
I miss my friends. I just miss having friends in general. I feel as though everyone is off doing their own things with their own groups & I'm here, stuck on the sidelines. I want to reach out to them again, but, damn it, you know. I feel more unimportant every time I see Twitter updates, Instagram updates . . . Damn social media. I've never truly felt as though I belong in a group since I was fifteen. Gosh, how pathetic is that?
Well, I kinda have my Uni friends now, & they're pretty cool I guess. I don't really feel a close enough bond to really connect with them, but all in due time, right? Classes are particularly brutal right now anyways. It's a constant nine-to-five session & I still haven't gotten used to it. My exams are like poop, I'll have to retake three subjects from secondary school. I probably failed my Uni Maths exam. And all this from a Foundation in Science student. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm like the dumb rock in a class full of smart kids who actually seem to have a definite future. I could just cry right now.
But enough about that. A friend of mine always tells me to think positive & don't hold on to regrets. I think it's best I take her advice. She really is such an angel. It's so surreal.
I'm going to attempt to make a change. I don't want to sit around & waste my life. I've got to really pull through this time to achieve what I want. Hopefully, all will turn out find. Turn my life around & all that jazz.
Gosh, I'm a sap.
*sigh*
*deep breaths*
All right, enough ranting *was this a rant?*. I'm gonna complete my assignment already given on my first day back to class, like, seriously?* & attempt to update this sad thing? Meh.
Should be all for now. May you hear from me again or whatever. If I bother to remember. *bangs head on wall*
xoxo