Monday, December 23, 2013 8:04 PM
Break Time, Woot!
Hello Semester Break!
*cheers*
Finals were absolutely horrid. We have just two weeks of break. I'm trying *key word : trying* to make the best out of it as possible, and. . . I feel so lost.
I'm honestly not sure anymore if I want to continue with Foundation in Science. But at the same time, I don't know what other options there are for me. I feel so depressed just thinking about when the third semester would begin & if I'm even eligible enough to simply continue the course.
I feel as though my grades are gradually slipping. I barely have any motivation to do much & it's killing me. Never have I felt this way before. But I don't want to simply stop it altogether because it's not something my grandparents would approve of. My whole life literally revolves around my grandparents. I'd honestly rather die than end up being a disappointment to them.
This sucks. Uni sort of sucks.
Friendships confuse me. I always feel like an outsider when surrounded by Uni friends. Never have I felt like I truly belong with them. I feel literally no absolute attachment to any of my friends aside from just sharing a course & class. That's how horrible my social life is. I miss my old friends more & more everyday. But even with them, it's like we're growing apart. That's just another aspect of my wondrous life I don't know how to fix.
I did manage to catch up with two of my friends at one point. How I miss moments like those with the girls. Now I'm currently hoping to be able to meet up with another one of my besties. I miss her so much. Never did realise how much I would miss her. *sigh* Friendship *sigh*
So Christmas is coming up. The family's gonna be celebrating Grandmother's birthday on the 25th. Everyone's going to be there! That's a definite plus. Just a couple more days & the household will be a total ruckus. Good times.
Oh dear. Just remembered that I also have to have an important discussion with Baby Brother. Seems both of us aren't having much luck when it comes to our academic & social life. Pretty pathetic, huh. I also came to a sudden realisation over how close Baby Brother & I are, thanks to the ever-lovely Aunt.
*cough**cough*
#OverlyAttachedSiblings
I honestly never meant for this post to be so angstangstangstdepressingthoughtswahwahwahwoeismylifeblah but all this just spilled out all of a sudden. Through my fingertips. Word vomit. That analogy makes sense, okay.
Lets just hope for a more upbeat post next time, yes? Please? Sort of mostly for my sake. Now, while that takes time to process, gonna listen to Disney songs on repeat & have a Totally Spies marathon!
Why? Because I freakin' can. I'm still a child, damn it.
xoxo